Finally...

Finally, everything has came to a decision..after all the things had happened for these few months, i found out i couldn't let him go away from him, i started to miss him evyday, miss the day that he didn't call me, miss the day the he didn't look for me, scared that he said he is going to leave me, scared that his fren will use diff angle to see me..soo much fear and worry on me now..finali, all my worries reach an ends, evything is turning up to a good way...since so many things happened recently, finali im his beloved, we hav so called the title for both of us..i knew that he is so happy ever since that day i said yes..and still he is so stupid til he needs my hints to know that im ready, sometimes i reli felt frustrated on it, but after i hav think for a while, it might be a good thing for me to prove that he will not easily fall in love with others or easily say those words to other gals, he can gif me some kind of secure, i felt so much secure when im with him although it is not physically, but i do felt that kind of secure from him.i knew that he will use his heart to love me, to cherish me and appreciate me, i guess this time i reli find my mr right. although he is not handsome , not rich stupid but i reli like him to use his heart to love me..although v had not started for a long time, but i felt like i have been gone thru many things with him, many memories with him..with hapy and sadness..ever since im with him, all the moments i've been thinking on him, missing him, i reli miss him so much, wish that he can be by my side...before i be with him, i told him evything about her, the days and memories with her..i knew that it might be something very unacceptable by a guy, but i reli didn;t mean to cheat him when im be with him, i reli dun wan to cheat him anymore..i want to use my heart to love him..to cherish him.i admit, sumtimes when i heard tht she call hm or asked her out for yum cha, in my heart i felt a bit weird, i guess i still haven totally forget her, i reli wish to be her fren and let all the things passed, somehow i need to do it..i couldn;t be as playful as last time..i will cherish him...love him..