Sadness Part 2

She was not happy today and she was crying just now, i reli feel like i cant do anything to help her, she was so moody and sad...due to her again, i reli felt very frustrated on her behaviour towards her, just simply losing the temper on her..wut kind of person is that, izzit just because of her sickness or other people didn't treat her well and she just misuse this frenship and just losing the temper to her, that;s is unfair to her, i cant say anything, i just dont wana to continue seeing this....wut a damn...
further more, she told me that she had a sickness and she refuse to double check again from the doctor, i was very worry on her, this is not a joke and it is something very important and serious for her personal healthy problem, if continue like this, it may harm her body, i reli dun want to see this, i was very worry and she seems like afraid of facing this sickness, as a fren, i felt im so useless and at this moment i seems like cant do anything to help her...so far, actuali it had been happened for a long time and i just knew about it...wut can i do to help her, to let her to see doctor to cure the sickness....wut can i do ???as a fren, i reli doesnt wana see her continue like this....seeing her suffer and i also feel like wana cry like i cant do anything to help her and im not a good best fren for her.....damn it.......god pls bless her...all the blesses falls on her.....pls pls pls.....she is my best fren and i dun wan to leave her alone....btu i got no time....pls ...blesses..i need blesses...

Meet the Parents

He came back edi..makes me feel very happy for these few days..almost evyday we are stick together besides sleeping time...reli wish that he can be by my side all the time..these few days, i reli felt very happy.i onli can use happiness this word to represent my feeling...til that day he told me that, his sister recommend his whole family go out for a dinner together and she aso ask me and his bf along..i felt damn tension and scare when i heard this, i wish to go but i reli felt very tension, this is my first time having dinner with his family....finally reach his house, i felt his house looks very old, dirty and messy, because his house is the place for work and also the place for them to sleep. that time onli i know he grew up at this kind of place, so it is understandable that he is such a stingy person when come to himself on buying things...which makes me get to knwo him well..his mother is such a nice person, she knew that i was heaty, she asked him to take the tong sui for me and bring some mee for me to eat, besides, actuali she plans to boil another tong sui on the next day, but when she knew that im coming, she boil it on that day, i felt very touching on that, such a nice aunty, his father doesnt look fierce but bit silent...his brother were shy and we didnt say a single word, his sister still ok, just that i have a bit scare on his first brother since xw always take his car to fetch me to go out, sometimes i reli worry that his brother don;t like me becos of this...and i was scare to tell him about that...during the dinner, he was so careless, he took the yam for me and he himself take the meat, i felt very geram that time but i din say a single word..at last, luckily he take the vege to me..he is damn stupid, i purposely take out the cover of the prawn to him but he think that i dun wan to eat the prawn, such a stupid person la....but i reli felt happiness when im with him,, is it this can consider as we have step into another stage???i was wondering...recently he become very sweet on the wording that he said to me, and he started to say those loving words to me, i felt very happy when evytime he told me that he reli love me so much and cant let me go...i feel very touching which makes me cant easily to leave him alone....i was wondering when will be the time for me to bring him over to my house to let dad and mum to meet him....i dun think in a shorter time i will be bringing him over...she sent flowers to her...wut a big flowers...all of reli happy for her and envy..such a big bunch of flowers, reli make ppl envy...i oni can see her smiling face and happiness expression appear on her face.....

Mood was spoiled

Suppose today is the most happy day to me, whole day i was very happy and i was like counting down the hours that he's coming back to me..reli miss him so muchie..cant wait to see him edi.. end up my mood was totally spoiled. her wording was totally hurt...the things that she said made me feel like she is not trusting me...i can accept no trusting from frens but not families..i hate that feeling....

Bad day 2

Sob sob....wut a bad and unlucky thing..seems like none of the things goes right..ever since this morning until just now..nothing good happened..all the things couldnt go on smoothly...there mus be something jam up over there..really mentally stress up for the whole day til all the temper came out, moody and feel sad..on the work i guess...reli like stress recently..nothing seems going right, i have been trying my very best to do it, but still couldnt solve it...reli stress man...somemore, i hurt my hand, shoulder and waist..very painful...becos of chris la, by helping her to carry the heavy microwave, i hurt myself...sob sob...wish that he is here to help me to masage and put medicine...cant wait til the day he come back..

Wut I have done for today!!!

Wut a tiring day..i sweep the floor, mop the floor, wash the kitchen, clean my rooms, wipe the windows, iron the clothes..etc...til im totally exhausted..then i went for swimming...But still i have did smth for xiauweng..i make smth special for him as our 100 days anniversary present. It might not be smth expensive but something that i make solely for him..i made this til my hand and neck also painful..but al of this not becos of only making this til i felt tired instead i feel happy when i did this to him..when i love somebody, u will willing to do smth for him..eventough u feel tired but u will think that wut u have done is worth to get his smile on his face by saying "thank you dear, i love it so much", is reli worth for it..

Farewell to AWei

Again, there is another fren who is going to leave this big families..she is the person who leave after seow hwee..she is a bit boyish, tough and good-looking..is a nice person..i was absent on the morning session, she bought ice-cream as a farewell present for each of them, but too bad i dun hav one and it doesnt matter to me. Suddenly, this afternoon, when melinda came back from MAS, she walked towards me and hand over a red box, when i saw it, i knew it was KFC, she told me that the chicken is ah wei asked her to buy for me as the farewell present since i missed the ice-crema yesterday, that moment i felt so much touching cos i never think that i will have it somemore is something different from each of them. That moment i knew that we bought that cake for her is worth for it.This cake is a big surprise to her..i can see that she feels touching on the things that we did it to her..especially the moment that she left the office, i still remember it was 630pm, everybody walked over and said the last goodbye to her. Before she left, she told melinda that she missed her tong sui so much and her tears dropped down.all of us felt surprise, a tough gal will dropped her tears..i was wondered when the day soh cheng leave or me, will i cry???the question prompt out from my mind. when everybody busy saying goodbye to her, sip walked over to the door there and open to ask her to leave, i know he just wana fool around, since he lost a good partner on the audit work..all of us miss her so much, she have been here for about a year, the time is not long and not short, too much memories brought over to her..those sadness and happiness..althought YCC might not be a good company to give wutever you want in terms of increment or opportunity to reach higher but still it is a warmest company, the environment of working, the colleagues are frenly, like to fool around, helping each others..when i look back i notice that i've make a right decision on the time wheni choose this company, im not regret of coming in, one thing i canot admit is i reli thanks to karuna, he reli teach me alot and help me alot... i reli gain alot from him..never regret on working here...

Bad Dayz again !!!!!!!!

I was wondering how come everytime im soo "lucky"this is the second time i lock myself but this time slightly different compare to last time, cos i locked myself in my room. can u imagine, no water no food, going to be dehydration...but, not so serious until that level. at least i have little bit water, without any food, and toilet!!!i guess one of the lucky that happened today which is at least i din feel stomachache that day consider as the most luckiest thing edi...i shud be appreciate that.reli felt helpless that time, nobody can help me, somemore raining heavily early in the morning, wut a bad day !!!!no locksmith willing to come, even if there is one willing to come but he wants to charge at a higher amount which is about few hundreds over. he is like a shark bitting me or wut i can say is he is sucking my blood just like a vampire. i have make many calls til almost many ppl also know wut had happened to me, more than 20 ppl know about my embarrass things, all of them just like laughing at me..til i reach to owner there.luckily she willing to pay me back for the bil but too bad, i forget to the bill from the uncle, i guess i have to call him back to get back the bill if not i cant get back my money!!!im broke man...almost wana cry this morning..luckily i din cry after thinking about it cos this is not the first time, i should be forbia in this case right?luckily hong sun manage to help me this morning, he bring the locksmith to come over and send him back again to take the lock and come back again to accompany me just in case i don;t have enough money to pay for it, reli feel sorry and thanks him so much cos he didnt slep for 24 hours edi due to heavy work load..i feel so thankful for helping me to run here and there although he is tired, wut a good fren of him..the worst thing is the management fella did bring over the locksmith and at the same time hong sun reach my house wit the locksmith, end up there are 2 locksmith, i reli feel embarrass at the moment like i make the things more complicated.end up i have to pay for 2 persons, the first fella who come from kl, he is just like the vampire to suck my blood, suck my rm80 bucks, luckily the 2nd uncle charge me rm50 bucks onli...wut a lucky...finalli everything has fixed, end up went back to the office...the 2nd bad thing happend again, i make a mistake on my work again, if this is a mistake from client still acceptable but this work come from the big boss..wut a big mistake i make on the name somemore this is the thing that i have submitted to SSM, now i reli feel guilty for making such a big mistake!!!!this is not the first time..how dare i make such a big mistake, sometimes i reli suspect whether i reli suit to work in this line due to im such a careless person..feel very guilty..suddenly feel like today is the most bad day i ever had in my life.never come to this before like never ends...haiz...i reli need some relieve..after happen all this thing, i reli wish he can be by my side when i ned help but always he is not the one. i know that i cant blame him, he is trying his very best edi...and i never ever blame him for tht also..although i wish to hav him by my side.my sis asked me whether will i fall in love wit him since he helped me, wut a big joke...but one thing canot deny which is i reli feel appreciate him and thanks him.